Control

Today is Tuesday. The second day of term 4

I'm not at school, I'm at home - with Bronchitis.

This room smells like dog. Stupid Cleo.


I had an epiphony.
I am being controlled.  My physical self is being controlled.. by everything.

Weather.Parents.Deadlines.Bills.Weekends.Society.Friends.Dog.Health.Boyfriend.Mind.

I'm like a puppet, trapped in the show of my life. Creepy thought hey? There's nothing wrong about being a puppet though. It gives order and purpose. If someone else is playing out your life, then there's not really a reason to worry about what you're doing cause somebody else is doing it for you? I feel so lazy when I say it like that. I don't think for myself, I copy everybody else. 


Wait, control. Maybe that word's too harsh. Influence? Yeah that's it.


Influence, not control. I am influenced by my surroundings. I'm not an individual, I'm a product of everybody else's qualities. My life is played out like a doll in a doll house.


'Molly, it's time for you to have a bath now'
Okay. Pick me up. Take off my clothes. Put me in the bath tub. There we go, I'm having a bath.


Does that even make sense?

REMINDER

amen.

MM

New Start, Again.

I'm so ridiculous, I can't stick to one thing.

I kinda realised, though, that my list of 100 things to do before I die will be neglected..

Holidays were good, I wish they went for longer though; Two weeks doesn't seem to be enough anymore. However, there's only two weeks of classes left until SWOTVAC and then there's

..exams

AHHHHHH

Folio is due in a couple of hours. No chance I'm going to get it done BECAUSE I FUCKING LOST IT LIKE 6 WEEKS AGO AND MY SCHOOL WON'T GIVE ME AN EXTENSION but lucky for me that my doctor knows when I'm in need of medical certificates.. Hehe. he.

School's Nearly Over. School's Nearly Over. School's Nearly Over. School's Nearly Over. School's Nearly Over. School's Nearly Over. School's Nearly Over. School's Nearly Over. School's Nearly Over. School's Nearly Over. School's Nearly Over. School's Nearly Over. School's Nearly Over. School's Nearly Over. School's Nearly Over. School's Nearly Over. School's Nearly Over. School's Nearly Over. School's Nearly Over. School's Nearly Over. School's Nearly Over. School's Nearly Over. School's Nearly Over. School's Nearly Over. School's Nearly Over. School's Nearly Over. School's Nearly Over. School's Nearly Over. School's Nearly Over.

Yeah, that's cool/exciting.

I should really return to actually finishing my folio so I can actually hand it in on Wednesday morning.

Peace. <3